EFFORTS MADE :) loving you was way much easier than missing you.

So again like every year he was going away with his family..
Wait wait don't get me wrong, he was not leaving his girl or their relation. He was just going for a vacation with his family that too on the occasion of durga puja.
The previous year i.e. 2011 he promised her to spend his entire 2012 durga puja with her, just with her..
For us i.e. for the bengalis, durga puja is the occasion of coming out of homes in new outfits, enjoying days and nights , exploring the beauty of kolkata and pandal hoping all the five days of durga puja and she didn't wanted to do all these things without him but on the other side he had no option other than to go with his family..

They met the day before he was leaving the city and as expected she was upset. She enjoyed the day with him but somewhere she was deeply hurt as he didn't keep his promise of being with her at that time of the year, but at that age he couldn't help and as a good and understanding friend, girlfriend and partner, she understood his problem but sometimes complained him for hurting her..

"Aap sahi mai jaa rahe ho?" She asked in a low voice..

"Kya karu, i dont have any option , mai papa ko na nahi bol sakta babu" he answered her sadly..

He didn't wanted to see tears in those beautiful eyes.
Somewhere he felt like a looser for making her upset, for making that beautiful little girl sad on those days when everyone would enjoy. He was upset too..

So finally he went away, went away for the next 12 days but this was not what made her upset she was upset as they won't be able to meet on the days of durga puja..

And so the fourth day of durga puja it was.
It was 'chaturthi', the day from when the actual puja starts, the enjoyment starts.
She woke up early that day and as usual before getting up she checked her phone.

"1 new message" it read.

She unlocked the screen and it was a message from him.

"Good morning baby.. check your orange sling bag, you will get a pink envelope. Please take it out open it up with a smile and just take out letter with '1' written on it and read it and if you love me then you won't open any other letter in that envelope other than letter 1.. read the letter no. 2 tomorrow and 3rd wala uske baad wale din.. and so on till the last letter and the last day of puja".

he was talking about an envelope that he had hidden in her bag the day when they went out before going on vacation.

She got up in a hurry to take out that envelope and without even getting fresh she took out that envelope and took letter no. 1 out of it..

"Good morning my beautiful lady.. aj chaturthi hai.. so happyy chaturthi babu.. um um ummm ekdum nahi don't be sad hum hai na apke passs... i am right beside you baby feel me holding you tight"

She closed her eyes to feel him and then continued reading

"Hmm so aj let me tell you.. aap pink checked top pehnogi please i love that top and aj jab aap niklogi toh please mere taraf se bhi phuchka khana.. i am so much missing that puja wala phuchka :) and eat as much street foods you want mai puja k dino mai tumko na nahi bolunga.. eat bhel puri, burger, biriyani and then after few days when i will be back i will check ki kitni moti ho gayi tum and then hoga exercise with me :) and soon you will be back in your lovely figure..and yes i will kiss your belly until it becomes flat again hahha.. ya shayad flat hone ke baad bhi kiss karu ..i love you baby and i miss you.. please if you love me don't be sad just smile.. you are my little angel my life and i promise ki hamesha aapke pass rahunga..your little nose, i miss kissing that cute puchki nose.. i miss the cute smile of yours, i miss your zid karna, i miss you babu..shaadi k baad we will go on a vacation like this only me and you and koi nahi hoga to disturb us..my wife i love you :)  please enjoy the day i will be back soon"

She smiled, she was happy, she was happy as she could feel him with her.. that letter made her day.

And that envelope had six more letters for the fifth(panchami), sixth(sasti), seventh(saptami), eighth(ashtami), ninth(navami) and tenth(dashami) days of puja.

Every morning on those puja days she used to get up and take out one letter and read it and this is how the other seven days of puja was made amazing for that little soul..
His effort made her feel more in love with him.
7 letters for 7 days of puja and then he was back to be with her :)

Those days, those feeling can never go..
Even if they are not together.. separately they will remember those moments, those efforts of love. They will never forget but they will never accept that they still remember maybe still in love with each other....

Aditya :)

Kitni baatein yaad ati hai :(

Life was good for them rather it was awesome for them together.
They were now closer than before, used to share each and every thing, and every night after a hectic day they used to talk and share all the problems, the fun, and every other thing that they faced on that particular day. This made them a bit relieved and relaxed every night and then it became their routine to talk each night..

On One such night..

She- "yaar kuch acha nahi ho raha hai..this girls school will destroy my life..such bitches all around"

He- "arre baap re khatarnak.. mere jungle ki sherni kya hogaya?"

She- "just dont ask ki kya hua?"

He- "umm ok... aj pata hai school me.. me and abhishek were punished bahar aurr..."

He couldn't complete his sentence as she screamed from the other side..

She- "kya kya kya??? Matlab i told you dont ask matlab you wont even ask ki kya hua school mai.. kaise bf ho.. kaise hubby ho"

He- (in a worried tone) "babu gussa nahi hote mai toh bas mazak kar raha tha i was kidding " (he was actually not kidding but bored of listening to all those daily girly fights)..

She- "I DONT WANT TO TALK"

He- "babu i am sorry na please tell me kya hua babu my little angell"

Her mood was ruined and she was not answering him..

He- "acha i know kaise mood thik karna hai"..

He started to speak in a soft voice comforting her..

"Let me tell my angel ki humara ghar kaisa hoga.. let me tell you how i planned the interior of the house..
Umm lets start with the walls..umm our room will be greenish yellow in color..
Umm three walls will have three different shades of green and the fourth wall will be of light and bright yellow color... n ceiling ko kya white rakkhe? "

She- "yaks no no light blueee"

He continued after a smiling on his own as he understood that she had already forgotten her anger and was now happily listening to him..

" okk my little girl.. so the ceiling will be light blue in color..and obvio fall ceiling will have bluish light attached to it to give our ceiling some light effects...
Umm now the best part.. the wardrobes.. there will be two wardrobes..one a bit smaller than the other"

She- "two wardrobes? Why? Apna kapde alag rakhoge? Hm hm?"

He- "um hm pehle suniye toh aap... the small wardrobe will be special..and it will be yours only yours.. it will have the best collection of dresses.. your favorite dresses..
And uske niche wale shelf pe your matching earnings and necklace for each dress and uske bhi niche wale sliding shelf mai will be your stilettos.. your favourite ones..
Everything will be matching..
And the wardrobe will be fitted with yellow lights that will light up the wardrobe..."

He took a pause

She- "plzz aur batao naaa it will be so awesome na your house.. i mean our house"..

He- "babyyy aur ek cheez pata hai.. the bed facing wall will have a picture, a big picture of yours and mine.. romantic sa..maybe candid shot... the wall wil be covered totally with that pic.. and the other wall will have a big soft board..jaha pe we will stick our pictures abhi se leke shaadi taak n uske baad ka bhi it will have pictures of our journey together from the first picture to the last one.. jab bhi picture khichenge we will take print out of the best pic and stick it with the date when it was captured anddd side mai fully.."

He could hear her breathe comfortably and he understood that she was already asleep..

He- " so gayi my little princess?"
.....
He got up and took out his diary and wrote each and every interior planning in details so that we he grows up he could tally with that writing and can make their room exactly the way they planned...

That day it was 7th april 2012, today its 6th august 2015..
Exactly after 3 years 3 months and 30 days..
He is reading that diary.. he is reading what they had planned for. he is determined to make their room the way they planned and thought of.. but
years back they planned it together and wanted to stay in that house together but now he is sitting alone reading his diary.. she is not there and doesn't even want to stay with him..
He miss her.. he will miss her the day when their dream house will come true..maybe she doesn't even remember his dream, their dream, their plan and him..

One misunderstanding and she is gone...
No ones fault.
<\3 :(

Kitni baatein yaad ati hai..
bas tasveero mai kuch pal reh jati hai..
Jinko chah k bhi bhul na pau...
Us lamhe ko jeena firse chahu..

Aditya :)

His angel <3 (farewell meet)

The next dat it was her farewell.. farewell of class 10..

Girl-  so lets meet tomorrow please.

Guy- but mera classes hai babu..

Girl- hum saree pahenenge dat black one which u always wanted me to wear on our first date..aur aap hi mujhe nahi dekhoge..

Guy- i know my Baby i really want to see you, to see my beautiful angel..it will be like a dream coming true..but extra classes is very imp..

Girl-ha hum se zyada everything is important huh.

Guy- yeahhh n i love to see this nakhra of yours..my little baby..cheeks red hogaya gussa mai lal tamatar..

Girl- huh bhindi kahi ka.

Guy- meri tarbooz (watermelon)...shuno na kal 2:10 p.m. your prince charming will wait for you haldirams mai..aaogi na?

Girl- serious? Mazak hua toh wil hit you with my stiletto..

Guy- arre baba ake dekhna ek handsome sa banda wait kar raha hoga. :p

Girl- bas basssss r u really serious?

She doesn't believe him but at the end of the conversation he convinces her that he was really going to meet her and that night she slept with a smile :)...

The next day anyhow he manages to bunk and come out before 2 p.m. from his school and runs with his school bag hanging and dragging all the way to haldirams ( a veg restaurant and cafe)..
As soon as he enters the cafe he just puts his bag in an empty chair and runs to the washroom to make himself look as good as possible in that stingy school dress..

Ahh he was all set to meet her but she was late so he sat and ordered a coffee and without even sipping it for once he dozed off...

After 16 minutes...

"Oeee ghanchakar kumbhokorno"  she screamed pushing him..

He anyhow manages to open his sleepy eyes to notice that beautiful thing infront of him..
Just can't explain in words how she looked..
A 5 ft 6 inch girl wrapped in black saree and a matching red bordered blouse..revealing her hips..oh man she was so damn perfect. It was not the first time that they were meeting but,
But he was mesmerized by her looks, he was speechless. It was like he was dreaming about an angel, she was so perfect..

While managing her smooth silky hair she said "ab baithne bhi boldo maharaja"..

He was dumbstruck..he just nodded his head in conformation for her to sit..
They looked at each other and that moment wow, it was just like that moment was paused, they kept looking, they kept feeling each others presence, smelling each other and touching each other through their hearts...

"Baby you look just the way i dreamt of you in saree" breaking the silence he spoke..

"Babu you are so sweet..i am sooooo happy that finally after so many months we could meet" she replied with a pretty smile of comfort in her face..

They were totally into each other. He pulled her chair near him and grabbed her hips tightly.. she breathed heavily feeling his touch and said..
"public place hai badmash ye sab ghar jaake karna"( ghar here referred to their imaginary house where they stay in their dreams)..

"I have something for you" he smiled and said..

"Kya puchu" she asked.

He covered her eyes with his palm and took out a ring from his pocket, a golden coloured ring.

Softly removing his hands his lips murmured.. 

"Just a small gift baby..i can't afford a gold or diamond or any costly ring or gift in class 10.. i can't ask you to marry me as i know its just a year that we are together and its a long way to go.. i can't make promises of things that i will do after our marriage as i am still very small to decide things..but baby i promise to stay by your side always..always to hold your hand and show you the right path..i will never leave you..i will never do anything that you won't like... i will be yours just your property from today..my this school bag will be yours , my sharpener my pencil rather my whole pencil box will be yours, my video game, my mario wala game also yours, and my little heart will be yours baby.. please will you be my little angel wala girlfriend forever?" He in a sweet and soft voice proposed her...

She was almost in tears of happiness and with a joyful and happy tone she replied

"puchu this is the best day of my life..really pichle janam mai kuch acha kia hoga isiliye itna acha horaha hai with me..past 1 year was like a dream to me.. i love you i really love youu sooo much".....

Sweet small proposal it was but it changed their life and they came close and were much more happier from that day :)

Love can make life a ton more beautiful than one can imagine.. :)

It starts :)

The train whistled to mark its departure....

Azad hind express was departing howrah station to start a journey to pune, maharastra.
Screams could be heard from one of its coach. People shouting, screaming, singing and there they were the west bengal junior badminton state team and they were heading to pune for nationals. Everyone was enjoying the journey which have just started. Some were busy arranging their luggage, some fighting over their berth, some gossiping and there we could hear the coach calling out every ones name and tallying it with the sheet that he was holding.
It was a journey of two nights n almost two days so the team decided to rest for that night as it was already late and they had even finished their dinner. So everyone got busy arranging their berths, spreading bed sheets over it, but three of them were sitting and deciding that they won't sleep but Will play that night..or will just talk but won't sleep atleast. The coach came and asked them to go and sleep but they were determined to execute their plan of not sleeping so they acted to impress the coach but as soon as he went..

Ady- "abbe gaya wo uth jao"..
Deba- "sure?"
Ady- "let me check"
Raj- "soye hai toh so lete hai"
Deba- "u will try to sleep and i will try to kill you"

Three of them got up and sat on their seats..

Deba- "lets play something"
Raj- "lets play sleeping wala game"
Deba- "maar khaya hai? Sleeping insaan sala"..
Ady - "ruko ata hu mai zara"
Deba- "na beta tum kahi nahi jaoge"
Raj- "bhagega sala"
Ady- "kutto ye train hai yaha se kaha bhagu...susu aya hai toilet jaa k ata hu yaar"...

He said and jumped of his seat and walked towards the washroom..
He was walking and suddenly he caught a glimpse of someone really cute, he couldn't recognise so while returning from the washroom he peeped to look at it again. He saw a girl with a pony tail wearing a sleeveless top and a capri, a really cute girl sitting and talking to her father. She was also in the junior team. He gazed at her for sometime and then went towards his seat but then he was so much into her that he turned and went again towards the washroom so that he could see her once again.. while he passed he kept looking at her, she was truly beautiful. He then ran towards his berth..

Ady- "deba thats udi? She is so awesome..please jaa k call her..n bol that we will play something"
Deba- "tu ja na y me..abbe raj uth dekh kya bol raha hai ye..sala so gaya firse"..
Ady- "pleasee deba request yaar"..
Deba- "ok okk jati hu but chocolate chahiye"..
Ady- "khud banake khila dunga tujhe chocolate tu ja bas bula k la"..

She got up and went to call her..
While raj opened his sleepy eyes wide..

Raj- "bol kya hua"
Ady- "sala ramayan khatam hone ko aya aur ye yaha kya hua..tu so ja bhai..sapne mai ladki dekh"

Almost after15 to 20 minutes she came with her, he could see her, the cutest girl walking towards him and she came and sat beside him..

Adi- "hi"..
Udi- "heyy..kya khelna hai?"

she was busy arranging her hair as it was disturbing her by falling on her beautiful eyes and he kept looking at her as if all these years he was just waiting for this girl and so finally they met..they sat together for the first time..first time he felt something for her..first time it was that he was madly into her..first time that he was having such an awesome feeling..
She was beautiful... was adorable..he just can't explain her cuteness and beauty through words.
She had very small feet for which he always used to tease her, but he liked it, he liked her, they didn't knew that they were going to be together, they didn't knew that they were going to fall in love with each other.. but time showed its magic and they soon became good really good friends and used to share everything...

Being alone :(

A nice windy day..

He was walking along the highway, all alone and his ears blocked with ear plugs playing soft romantic songs while his lips were murmuring the words of the song playing on air(radio).
He was lost in his own world thinking about how life changed, how in just a single moment he was thrown out of his awesome and happening life.

Walking past the breeze , the cool breeze which brushed his hairs and tickled his face, he stood right their closing his eyes and suddenly all memories flashed back in a movie style in his mind. He could see his life back then, how he used to smile, his real smile which he badly missed now. He smiled and realised that his life has changed a lot, a lot more than what he could have ever imagined. A drop of tear shed down his eyes, maybe he was missing some one, some one special.

He looked up..looked straight up towards the cloudy sky...

"Why god? Why me?"

He asked and gave a pause and continued with.

"I was ready to fight with every problem leaving this. I always prayed to you for never to show me this day. You knew i am weak and i can't stay alone like this"..

Saying this he took out his wallet opened it and watched the picture, looked at the innocent face of the girl who left him mid way...

His smile was lost somewhere in her.. with her his smile, his happiness, everything went away and broke up with him...
He was lost somewhere between making people happy and understanding his mistake... he wanted to share, to talk, but people never bothered...they did for a few days but now no one gives a damn to his life.. his only friend was the girl in that picture who abused him, blamed him for every wrong thing that took place in her life but still for him he could only share his sorrow with the girl in that picture...

He looked at the picture and requested..

"Wapas aa jao na babu"..

Tears rolled down his cheeks and drops of tears fell in the picture. Closing his eyes he again begged..

"Ek mauka do..wapas aa jao..koi nahi shunta mera..koi puchta tak nahi..sab apne life mai busy ho gaye hai aur tum bhi..aj koi nahi hai khane k liye bolne wala..koi nahi hai daat k samjhane wala..koi nahi hai zid karne wala..koi nahi hai mujhe apne baato se tang karne wala"

Maybe happiness for him was just those 5 years spent with her..
Maybe it was his end..
He wanted someone to hold him, hug him and understand maybe then he would be able to move away from his memories..

Cleaning his teary eyes he smiled..he has now accepted that maybe he doesn't deserve her and with these thoughts he kept walking and his memories kept playing as slide shows in his mind with the song in his ears...

And thoughts in his mind went like...

"Zindegi shayaad ayesi hi hai...
Pal mai khushi...
Pall mai dhukh dene ki ye iski gandi adaat si hai...
Bas...
Rab se yahi dua hai ab...
Chahe humare naseeb mai sab gum hi likhdo...
Par phulo se sajake usko janaat si zindegi...
Aur hume uski hasi ki ek jhalak hi dila do..."

This day, that year :) <3

The day..
Its all about the special day when his girl, when his soul mate was born.
9th march 1995 that special date which he can't forget for his entire life time and no matter what happens he will celebrate this day every year in his own way with a smile and giving his everything to make her smile.
It was the day when a new born girl came in this world with a face which he finds the most beautiful one he has ever seen,  the eyes that speaks a lot, the lips which was just made for him to touch and for her to demand, the nose with which she breathed to be alive and to be with him forever (his favourite part was her nose small and cute that perfectly sits in her face), the ears that used to hear all his problems, all that he wanted to say and the hands which was made just to hold him in his good and bad times.

"I want to spend the day with you baby"

She messaged him requesting to spend her birthday with her..

"My little princess aapko pata hai na parso aapka exam hai? You remember na that you need to do very good and make me proud? Vada kia tha aapne"

He kept making her understand that it was impossible to meet as her final exams were going on.
She knew it was impossible, she knew they can't meet but still like a little child she requested..

"Umm toh thik hai aaj pura din phone pe baat karenge mujhe nahi pata bas"

she commanded him and as usual he denied to do so as he wanted her to study.
She became upset as she really wanted to celebrate her birthday with him, she cried a bit and then went to study promising him that she won't talk with him for the entire day. Little did she knew that a small but a cute surprise is waiting for his cute lady..

Ding dong...

The door bell rang and her father went to open the door and came in with a big bouquet of flower with a name card written
"from your friend shreya, sanchari and srija"..
Seeing the bouquet of blue and white orchids which made the room full of fragrance of the flower got her excited and she immediately dialled her friend's number whose names were written on the card..
They had a long conversation which ended up making her sad as the bouquet was actually not sent by her friends. She was about to go and tell her parents about the bouquet and the unknown sender when her phone vibrated..

"1 new message - sender puchu"
it was written..

She unlocked her phone to see the message..

"Baby i know we can't meet today, i can't hug you on this special day, we can't go for a walk nor a movie and i am sorry for that. More than you aj mujhe dukh ho raha hai because every year i am the most excited person to celebrate your birthday with a bang but this year i can't. I am really sorry for making you upset on this day but i had already planned this surprise for you yesterday and so i kept on ignoring you for the last few hours. I can't give you a very expensive gift or a  very valuable one but this is what i want to say to you..is flower jaisi ho aap..u r beautiful just like this bouquet..jab mere saath hoti ho toh i feel the same way when i smell you like the way you are now feeling smelling the flower, you smell as good as those flowers ..you are the most beautiful flower in my garden of life or rather you are my life..i will always make you smile like the way you are smiling now reading this message.. love you and will love you till i close my eyes forever"

Reading the message she sat on her bed thinking about the message she went through just a few seconds back, she was not able to hide the happiness in her face. She jumped around the room, kissed the bouquet and for the next few days she kept watering the bouquet, sprinkled water and did everything to make it stay for longer and longer..
He really wanted to spoil her with his love :)

Her smile can make your day..
But for him her smile made his life..

Happy birthday :) <3

Happy holi :) <3 with love

Holi festival of colours..but for them that holi was festival to celebrate love...its true that one doesn't need valentines day or any other day to celebrate love, if they are in love then they can celebrate it whenever they feel like..any day, any time and at any place <3

So it was their 3rd holi together but this time it was special. Everytime they used to play holi with their families and wish each other over the phone, the incredible gadget that helped them to play e-holi or can say message holi, but this time something was really different.
This time they planned to meet up and play holi at their friend's place for which they easily got permission from their parents.

So finally it was the day, the holi day. They were almost 6 to 7 friends at her friend's house and everyone was excited and was getting ready to play holi. The guy was busy applying oil as all over his arms and face when the girl silently went to the balcony without letting anyone know and closing her eyes prayed to god..

"God really thank you for always giving me a way to make him happy, for always being there by my side and making us meet..thankyou iss saal ka holi itna special bana dene ke liye"

She thought she was alone in the balcony but then he came and hugged her from behind. She was about to open her eyes when he whispered in her ears..

"Shh shhhhh aankh maat kholo angel.."

His lips touched her ears which tickled her and she made a cute gesture. He took some oil and started applying it over her arms, neck and face, she didn't interrupt nor did she move. His hands went over her neck touching her gently and comforting her, his fingers were doing magic to her when it touched her skin, her body and soul. While applying the oil he covered her eyes with his palm and whispered in her ears..

"Mere taraf se bhi bhagwan ko thank you bol do and tell him agar wo bhi chahe toh bhi he can't separate us..mera love tumhare liye always badta rahega bhagwan bhi iss pyaar ko khatam nahi kar sakte.. never ever..."

She turned towards him giving a cute look and in a sweet childish voice she said...

"Sabse pehle colour mai aapko lagau? Mere hubby ko?"..

She didn't wait for him to answer and took some yellow powdered colour and softly touching his cheeks spread the colour over his face..

"Hubby hu mai tumhara?"
He confirmed..

And in a confirming tone she replied..

"Ekdum koi nahi chura sakta aapko mujhse ab"..

They really wanted to stay together forever and then the guy took some red powdered colour, but then he hesitated a bit.

"Kya hua laga bhi do"  she insisted..

She didn't knew his intentions nor did he knew as what he should do but then gently raising his hands he applied the red powdered colour over her forehead stretching it between her hairs..
She looked stunned, she was amazed, she didn't expect this to happen, tears rolled down her eyes. she swiftly moved and hugged him as tight as possible and excitedly said..

"Babu ye kya kia? Ab mujhe chor k kabhi maat jana...you really made my day baby..my hubby..ajse i will call you hubby dubby ok?"..

She was looking gorgeous like an indian bride with that red powder over her forehead which symbolises the "sindoor" of our tradition.
She kept saying..

"You made my day babu.. you are my life"..

Perfect holi, perfect day and a perfect couple to start their celebration with love.. <3 :)

Happy holi :)